The Light to Keep the Darkness at Bay

There are times when darkness eclipsed everything…I lost my sight, even my shadow abandoned me…

Luck was not kind to me then.

It has returned, and it is still unchanged…my sight is still useless and so is my spineless shadow…but what I have this time is someone who can show me the light when I cannot see any…

Luck is not this kind to everyone.

I know that this Saviour will have to leave someday, but after that day, I would not have to fear facing the darkness as I once had to, alone…

On that day their memory would be my Light.

First published on VeryContemporaryLines on 5th July, 2016.

Alone, Without Even a Single Drop

The war has waged long enough.

I can scarcely remember crying in the face of my problems…being human, but now no matter how much I want to, my eyes remain dry…

Thus this struggle has robbed me of my humanity, only a small piece of, it once again…

I guess even tears need times of joy to descend, times that have not come my way for a while now…

And I find myself asking: ‘…the day when I will be finally left alone, naked, stripped of my humanity, what would I be then?’

First published on VeryContemporaryLines on 30th June, 2016.

A Necessary Sacrifice?

When you love someone…you have to share an awful lot right?

Me? I have learned to keep my distance from it all; I cannot risk sharing my suffering, inflicting it upon those I hold dear…my walking in the other direction spares them from the pain….

It lets them be happy, it lets them be free…

First published on VeryContemporaryLines on 28th June, 2016.

Perspective

Seeing selfish brutes doing whatever it takes to succeed, stepping on others, stamping out the blaze of another’s dream to keep their own burning bright, I lost faith in Man…

It was only when I turned my gaze and realised that there were also those who lived for others, always in a constant state of self-sacrifice, was I proven wrong…

There is still hope for Man after all.

First published on VeryContemporaryLines on 27th June, 2016.

A Minute & a Half Before the First Step

I’m here…

Waiting…for the doors  to open, the doors that will lead to uncharted regions of my Self.

As fear and apprehension grips me I tell myself: ‘I’ve been through hell before, I’ve lived through it; how hard can this be?

First published on VeryContemporaryLines on 24th June, 2016.

The First Confession

I’ve been living in the abyss of rage and fury for so long that even though its darkness hurts me; it slows me down; it saps my strength, I have come to accept it as someone I’ll always have to come back to…

First published on VeryContemporaryLines on 23rd June, 2016.

And so it Begins, the Voyage of Understanding….

You! Yes you there behind the screen. Before we set off, I would have you know that I am truly grateful to you for being kind enough to accompany me on this quest!